Starting Over is Scary

1 Year Later...

I think that now I can call it official. I have been in Michigan for a year. I can mark this anniversary on the Superbowl. Last year it was in Detroit and I went downtown on Saturday night for the huge pregame party. I didn't watch the game last year and I didn't watch the game again this year. I have watched a lot of football this year because Matt watches a lot of Tennessee football but I can really say that I am just not all that interested. Give me baseball any day. But it is a moment to mark for me. So I guess this is time for reflection. On one hand it feels like a lot more than a year ago that I moved here. I have had two jobs since moving here and have traveled a lot. I have seen part of the eastern United States that were new to me and seen a lot of Michigan as well. I also have gotten to know my family a lot better. Seeing people who live near and are friends with cousins always made me a little envious. I think that family is people that you can love and hate and yet still hang out with like friends. I like experiencing that, good and bad. On that other hand, it is hard for me (still) to fathom that fact that I picked up and left Idaho within a matter of weeks. And that I did it without a plan. Honestly, I drove out here with absolutely no idea where I was going to live. With no money, no job, and no plan. Not exactly my brightest moment. Even a year later I am working on the answer to the question "Why?" That really doesn't matter any more anyway. It's done. I have to think that I have changed. And yet, a year later some things still hurt. My mom asked me once if I was depressed when I moved out here. Hmm. I guess that doesn't matter any more either. I can say that my fashion has changed. I have some now anyway. I think that is a good thing. See I can no longer get away with some of the clothes I wore in Idaho. Style here is a lot different. Case in point, I own (and wear!) high heeled shoes. I don't quite meet the style standards for the area but at least I won't be nominated for What Not to Wear anymore. My car has also changed in a little over a year. It has been plated in 3 states. It had Montana plates when I got it, I put Idaho plates on it and now I have just gotten Michigan plates for it. They aren't exactly on the car yet but I did get them. It is 20 BELOW 0 outside with the wind chill! I am not standing outside with a screwdriver in that kind of weather. In fact I am typing this hoping for a call before I go to bed that school is cancelled in the morning. They have already cancelled school in the town where I live but not yet where I teach. Here's to that 25 below 0 mark that we need to reach!

posted by Erin @ 10:12 PM